i'm just a boi!

hmm to start this blog off...OMG I WAS THE LAST 12 PPL OUT OF 500 TO GET A PASS TO DRAKE'S AUTOGRAPH SESSION...HOW FUKKING LUCKY CAN I GET...MAN I NEVER THOUGHT SOMETHING LIKE THIS WILL HAPPEN TO ME LOLZ....now that i'm done with that...lolz...so the guy i have a crush on was texting me today...like he said he would yesterday..to some degree i was kind of happy...but something just felt wrong...maybe that he is trying...i don't know...my friend who know the situation was telling me that i should really tell him how i feel...and after that i would be free from feeling so trapped with my feelings...and what she said was right...and so i decided to tell him...but i realized something seem uncomfortable...i told him i was on phone and he asked me who i was on the phone with...mind you he doesn't know any of my friends...but to take some consideration to ask me...made me feel uncomfortable like he was asking something private to me...i know i have a weird personality...and he did it again when i told him i went to the movies...he asked me who i went with...it was like...why ask if you don't know who i went with...if i was to tell you who i went with...does it really make a difference in your life...like ask if you know who my friends are...but you don't so whats your intension...hmmm...it was awkward...and thats when it hit me...if he is already asking questions like this...it already starting to feel something like a relationship...so if i was to tell him i like him...then it would be even more questions...i know i'm assuming but i can't help it...hmmm...so today when i came home...and we started talking on msn...we just were talking about random stuff...and he was going to bed and said he'll txt me tomorrow which was fine...and i was like for a person who doesn't care for girls..[[a line he previously told me]]...your txting me ....and i laughed...and he said i'm not a girl...and i was like wdf...and he was like not in that sense but that i'm a boi...like his friend in a guy version!...i guess thats what i wanted to hear all this time...i think i got my answer without even needing to make a fool of myself....or he knew...and he said it so i can back of...hmmm which ever way it works...i think i got the answer i needed...i'm just looked as a boi in his life...he knew i got annoyed and started telling he was getting kidding and etc...but it was obvious that he meant what he said...and it was cool...yes i'm annoyed...but i think this is what i needed...i think i can honestly move away....now...before he left he wanted me not to be mad cause he thinks he knows me well enough to know when i'm mad...but yeah and how he doesn't get why i am mad...which is another give away...that what he said was what he meant...hmmm what a day...from drake to a sour ending...everything is meant to happen...and i guess this is how this is suppose to happen...and its a matter of time...before i can just fully let go...but i think i'm 3/4 there....hmmm anyways i'm off to bed...dead tired and i have to study for my exam 2moro...