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Always listen to what your gut believes fits you...if you feel that stealing fits you then do it...if killing best fits you then do it...yes they have consequences for what you do by the government or by some sort of authority but at the end of the day u did what u believed in and what best fit you...even if ur sitting in jail and thinking why did I do it and feeling miserable...you know deep down inside some part of you is smirking and us gaining some kind of satisfaction...just like that I should of listen to what my gut was telling me...I should of believed in what I thought was right... Damn it... I knew that there was no point in sharing my feelings with...I wanted to share my thoughts my feelings my emotions my everything with this person because I thought hey maybe j should seeing that everyone thinks I compress my feelings but deep inside it was telling me don't act on it don't believe in what u think is a good thing sharing because there is no point and guess what that was true that was fucking true I shouldn't of thought that because at the end of the day I got fucked so hard it ain't even funny and twice fuck my life and opening up...I thought he would be someone who I can do that but clearly that failed and then I talked to my bestfriend well something of a bestfriend...despite the things I dislike about her...her card was sweet it was nice and it gave me rush of a flashback of all the things we shared and had and she msged me last night and we talked said how we felt I was hesitate about sharing how I felt and how I missed the old relationship we had so I was like fuck it let me just tell her how I feel...and after I did I feel so disgusted and remorseful of it... Wished I can take it back...I felt so stupid so retarded...damn it...this sharing of feelings and expressing shit like this is just not for me...I tried and I aint comfortable with it...I'm going back to who I was...who I was comfortable with...I like keeping my shit to myself and that's how it's going to be cause at the end of the day it's always about yourself :)....fuck the world and the ppl in it...except for this very feel ppl I love dearly and they know who they are....