frustrated

i have work at 5:30am tomorrow...and i'm so not looking forward to it...then after that i have to go to the gym....and come home and watch the game...tomorrow is GERMANY vs spain...man this is going to be a tough came...however some dude who predicts these games...who always gets it right said that spain is going to win...and he was only wrong once before...so it makes me question the game tomorrow...however i'm going to hope for the best and really hope that they play a good game...and go into the final...hmmm....i'm pretty frustrated right now...things are going not so great in a lot ways...and its just keeping me in the slump right now...i'm kind of keeping a low profile...just so that i don't snap at someone...and regret it after...sometimes hoping for the best is just not enough to make things better...you just got to let time takes its course...things with that guy is just an add onto my frustration...so its like fuck...i hate it when things just all come at once and it gets you...so much rage inside me...i really need to let them out...but i'm so use to keeping everything to myself...that i don't know how to let it out...but to some degree i like it this way...i like keeping my problems to myself...at the end of the day it is my problem...me sharing my problem with anyone is just a waste...they listen...and listen...then what..."i'm sorry your going through this"...really? is this why i spent the last three hours telling you my problems to hear this from you...and even if they don't say it...i'm pretty darn sure thats what they are thinking...it was funny because one of my friend was telling me this story...and she was expressing her emotions toward the story and everything...how pity she felt for the story...and everything and the SAD part about it is that...exactly the story she shared with me is what has happened in my life...and kinda still happening...but she has no clue about that...and i was happy i never shared my story...because at the end of the day thats all i'm going to get...."PITY"...."oh i feel so bad"...like the fuck with that....i can tell myself that same shit...wow i'm really frustrated...so annoyed now a days...that i just want to snap at everyone...with that in mind...i guess my decision to keep a low profile was smart...it ain't that i wont pick up the phone if someone calls or ...txt back if they txted me...its just that i'm not going out of my own way to text them...i just don't want to txt them and then snap at them to...its like wdf...you txted me and your snapping at me too...its pretty screwed up...so i haven't talked to him in 6 days now...well we kinda talked yesterday morning...but barely...cause i was getting ready to leave...and he was asking me what time i was coming and everything ...and i was like why...and he was like because i want to talk to you...and how he will be coming home early...and all this shit...mind you i ended up coming home early...and i waited online for a bit...and txt him...surprise surprise...no respond to nothing...why the fuck do i even bother....but i'm pretty happy that i'm not talking to me him...because i'm pretty sure i'll be a bitch if i was to talk to him...because i'll be taking out my anger on him...because he already is pissing me off...and i'm pissed of other shit...so its not a good thing but yeah...hmmm anyways i think i'm just going to stop ranting for today...sometimes you wonder why some people are weak...how they cant realize that sometimes you just got say fuck it and move on...it astonishes me how weak and incapable woman can be...how ridiculous they respond to certain situation...hmmm man i can go on this topic forever...and i clearly said i was going to stop ranting...but stupid friend just broke up with her boyfriend...is piss drunk...and is going back to her ex-boyfriends house to sleep...how is that even a good thing...but damn it she wont even listen...man...NO COMMENT!