I simply miss him

Thats all i can say...i simply miss him...there is nothing more i can say about the situation...do i miss him as a friend...do i miss him more then a friend i don't know...but i miss him so much that it hurts...this withdrawal is killing me...i hate this feeling...this feeling is so new to me...i ain't use to it...i don't know how to handle it...i don't know what to do with this type of feeling...the more and more i don't here from him...the more and more i feel like i want him...i actually want something with him...i actually want to give this a try....maybe i'm acting out of impulse...i don't know...i'm just so fukking confused that it ain't even funny no more...i don't know what i want....no more...my thoughts are so clouded...i cant see the clear sky no more...what do i do...where do i seek the answer...in my head or in my heart...because my head says no...cause i logically know why i'm saying no to the situation...but my heart wants this...my heart wants to give this a try...my heart likes him alot...and want to change him and make him a better person...someone who can be proud of himself...and i would love to be the person who can do that for him...but why...why am i held back...why is that i can't move forward...WHAT THE FUCK DO I WANT!?