Cute couple

i watch two Tamil dramas....one of which i'm very updated with and another i let it collect ( i get dvds to watch them)...just because the last episode i watched was so painful and i knew that the next episode would be even more painful...i just piled it up...and today i decided to catch up...and luckily it changed for the good and it is going pretty good now...but omg that couple in that story makes me want to be in a relationship so badly just because they are so cute....lolz...oh man....the things i get excited over lolz...but yeah...i had a nice and relaxing bath today...i even took a small nap in the tub...i haven't done that in a while...just to be home alone...and just be underwater and hear nothing but your own thoughts...its much needed from time to time...to help keep you sane...just being home alone is relaxing itself...no one telling you what to do...or other noises from other people in the house...just you and yourself and the noise you make...as creepy as it may sound..its nice...oh man i start school on sat...this is going to be a tough semester...just because its different courses i'm not use to...i'm a bit nervous...and i have this strategy course this semester...which has been said that it is the hardest course in my program...so i'm worrying about that a bit...but i'm hoping i pull through...i need to get good marks like i did last semester...i can't afford to get any more bad marks...or any marks below B....but yeah....hmmm life is just so blah right now...but what can i say its only the 5th day of the new year...i'm just so curious to know what this year has stored for me....deep inside there is this excitement inside me...i don't get why though...but its there and its just so weird...hmmm but yeah...but i guess as the year unfolds itself...i will find out...argh i hate how i have so many thoughts and 'what if' scenarios going through my head...i don't get why i'm keep letting my imagination run so wild...i just don't get that...i also hate how i'm such a strong person to those who need a shoulder to lean on...but i can't be that strong person for myself....i can't be that person i can lean to for myself...nor can i open up to someone else...so that i can lean on the shoulder of someone who is willing to give theirs to me...i don't just get myself...why do i make myself feel so complicated...why can't i just be a normal...to the degree of my feelings...